Personal & Profound (sorry for the interruption)

you know?
I try very very hard to not make this blog personal and pathetic.
but some conversations i have (profound as they are) must be told :)
Its not very easy to understand what kind of person I am from this blog.
So allow me to give you few interested people an insight into my life.

I go to Law School- the Only Law School in India
and stereotypical beliefs from the outside (also from the inside) are that we are all a bunch of "Big Headed, Ambitious, Arrogant people who think they're intellectually superior" to you.
Its true.
Its very very true.

But you know, I harbour hopes of being a good student but never a successful professional.
I don't want to be a corporate power woman who gets married when she's thirty years old.
Is it necessary to want to "live your life" before you get married and bear children? is wanting the latter "being backward"?
Does "living your life" end at marriage?
I'm all feminist right now like i said in my previous post and no one ever claimed that bearing children was wrong. They always wanted the world to accept that "not wanting to bear children" was not wrong.

Why can't i choose to be intellectually empowered and still be a homemaker at heart?
Life throws these important questions in my way all the time. ALL the bloody time.
I think its the time to myself that makes me think.
Its not necessarily a good thing.

I MISS BEING ABLE TO TAKE LIFE LIGHTLY.

PS- To end on a funny note, someone made a claim today-
"Bihar is not a state. It is a state of mind."
Have your laugh. :D

PPS- My post sounds like something out of a Non Fiction Book. Blech

PPS- Buy me a life, somebody?

Some one somewhere is doing exactly the same thing as you are right now

Its creepy.
The thought is creepy.
i can actually bet that someone right now is thinking the exact same thing right now.
Wondering if someone else somewhere else in the world is doing the exact same thing as he/she is and blogging about it.
i never really have thought about it.
but,
one thing i HAVE thought about is that someone somewhere is living his life bit by bit and building it for it to reach the point where his life is ready to intersect with mine.
my soul mate.
how can you not believe in destiny? in soulmates? in the Dil Toh Pagal Hai tagline of "someone somewhere is made for you"?

PS- notice how my "he"s have become he/she's :D
its my new found feminism talking.
'he' maybe a linguistic convention but you should see how the bias has creeped into something as foundational as our pronouns.
(I'm trying really hard to not become a feminist. Relax)

You all have these at your gym. You do. Don't Lie.

So,
I realized that if i stay at law school and don't exercise, I will become-

a) Fat
b) Unhappy
c) Unhealthy

i allowed my fitness-obsessed friend pull me along to The Gym. We had never really set foot into the college gym but we made our judgments based on the rest of the infrastructure (yes, i'm judgemental, don't judge me for it!) and went to the closest other gym- Dumbbells (I've never really learnt how to spell that word) .
I've been there just four days now but i have a theory about people at the gym. Every gym has these- look for yours.

The Body Builder

Duh! You've got to know which one is yours. He pumps some iron and then pumps some more. Even after everything on him is muscle. Everything. I mean, you've got to look mean to scare the bad guys away but sir, you're scaring the girls away to now.

The Fat One Running for His/Her Life

Self Explanatory.

The Exemplary One
The one everyone points out and says, she/he was really fat you know and now look at her! so thin. Mean, weightist people.

The Little One who Wants to be Fit

Sure. Don't lie. You're really scary if you think you're fat when you're grossly underweight. Or maybe I'm jjust jealous.

The Fit One

Perfect. I wish.

The One who Signs Up and Never Comes

I thought I was going to be that type. Its too early to tell :P

The Eye Candy

The one you stare at when your iPod runs out of battery.

The Pushy Trainer

yours is one too. Yes, it is part of their job profile.

Its not hard to spot them once you're looking. And it gives you something to do while you behave masochistically and push your boundaries of fitness. Have fun gymming! :D

Questions. So many Unanswered Questions.

I just had a long conversation on the terrace with a friend.
The terrace on a starless summer night.
Brings out philosphy out of you in its own magical way.
 And we talked.
About life and the uncertainty that it brings along with it.
About law school which squeezes all the juice out of you or at least shows you how much can be sqeezed out of you.
About upbringing and how it gives you a choice- to be the person your world wants you to be or to be the person you want to be.
We talked of how the +1 in our equilibrium will affect our ability to take objective decisions.
And wondered if we'd be able to stay in love with one person for the rest of our lives.
We said our deepest fears out loud. A failed marriage? A disabled child. We made our fears real.
We looked around and judged the place life has brought us to one more time and laughed at our inability to conceive what the place shall make of us in five years.
will these thoughts and revelations and our understanding of them change anything in our life.

unanswered questions. fear.
Is it that we are bound by destiny?

small post- sorry

So, what is the purpose of advertising?

Getting people to buy what your selling right?

so WHY in the world would you put a picture like this on your product page.

It grosses me out so much, i want to avert my eyes, forget buy this product.

Btw- its an ad for a mosquito repellant.

I was on that page because the mosquitoes on campus nowadays are keeping me occupied.

There are somethings money can't buy, for everything else there's MasterCard

There are so many things in the world which are invaluable to you.
Sometimes Most of the time, you just don't notice.
Like, you never knew how MUCH you loved the sound and the smell of the sea till it was taken away from you.
Like memories of those special moments in your life which you want to remember to tell your great grandchildren.
Like the moments you create doing some things, with some people, some times.
Like public transport in Mumbai.
Like Mamma's food.
Like finishing a book but wishing there were more pages.
Like fighting with your sibling.
Like shopping like a maniac and then complaining about how things don't fit in your wardrobe.
Like being able to call some place Home.
Like Hindi and English (and not Tamil and Kannada) music on the radio.
Like the COOOOOOL invention which is the mosquito-killer raquet.
Like tasty Lip Gloss.
Like Air Conditioners.
Like Birthdays.
Like buying something from your own savings/earnings.
  
DISCLAIMER:
A lot of things on my list can be bought. I was just pointing out their awesome-ness.

FYI:
Eunuchs in Bombay now expect Rs. 50 notes in alms.
When i gave one a Rs. 10 note- he/she made a face and said "isme kya aayega. Hmmph"
Jeez!

No Law School, Baby!

INGREDIENTS FOR AN AWESOME HOLIDAY:

Home
Good Food
Good Books
Movies
Internet
Friends
bombay
Something to Show Off
Something New to Try Out

Seriously.
A good holiday needs nothing but home. And the guaranteed fact that there is no Law School factor to haunt you.
I mean, can you imagine sleeping (read:sprawling) on the bed you've grown up sleeping in. The same bed where  you know the exact spots which are super comfortable and those which just give you bad dreams? Ahh! The mother getting you breakfast and the crisp newspaper in bed.
who needs strawberries and champagne?

That, along with whatever you want to eat a phone call/room away ;)

Reading... till the words are spinning images in your mind. You aren't interpreting them in your mind anymore. feeling what the character is feeling, seeing what the writer wants to show you. Just getting lost in the world created by that book in your hands.
  
Fake DVDs. The worst and best thing that ever happened. The worst for obvious reasons and the best because you know how to catch up on the movies you just missed from the cinema halls. Those which you can't wait to watch and so won't wait till the original comes out so you can pay three times a cinema hall ticket's worth for it.<3 Popcorn and Pepsi Combos <3
that with your local cinema hall. The one where your maternal uncle can get you the best seats in just by making call. They really still make those.

Accessing the internet and using StumbleUpon. Randomly browsing blogs. Doing NOTHING productive. That's the real reason they made the internet. Thank You Gods of the Internet.

Meeting all your friends and seeing the familiar faces in your local hang out. Marvelling how the waiter has now become the restaurant manager. Checking out and disapproving of the new young ones who've started coming and sitting on YOUR table. :)

This, in the perfect setting of Bombay. With the Beach and the Bombabes :) the cutting chaiwala and the women drivers rolling their windows down and abusing the shit out of men picking on them. The rickshaws and the taxis you pay by T card. The Street food and the fancy restaurants. The heat and the Mumbai Local. C'est Parfait.

Learning to Drive (and screwing up in the process). Showing off how cool living away from home is and pretending to be more awesome and successful than the rest of them at home, knowing all along that you'd switch with them any minute if they'd ask you. Always having something to talk about and someone to talk to.

And finally
Mangoes are here!!!!


There is nothing else i need. Yes, i will go back to law school visibly fatter. But its not lard ;) Its happiness i'm full of :P [that is NOT denial]