6 Days to Go

It's an odd sort of emotion i'm feeling right now.

I'm not geeky enough to know the right word for it. But i'll try to explain.

You know how sometimes in life you want something really really bad? And you work very hard to achieve it. You tell God, "Dude, I'll do anything, give anything away, just give me this one thing".

And then God gives it to you.

Till it really doesn't sink in, you celebrate your little success in life.

And then suddenly it hits you.

like a 440 volts jhatka.

You realise that you gave away something priceless for something of value to you.

What an irony.

What a sadomasochistic deal with God.

So now,

I got what i want.

I'm going to Bangalore in 6 days. To Law School. With 2 of the best friends I've ever made.(i would have preferred another4 coming along, but you can't have everythign in life you know)

My parents are proud of me and i think i got what i deserved. So why am i complaining?

Bombay is sending me away. Because i didn't value it enough.

The place. The emotion. The energy. The history. The friendships. The tears. The Life.

I'm letting it all go. For greener pastures of the garden city?

no.

i can't.

Dear Bombay,

I have something i never told you but must tell you now.

Remember? Valentine's Day 2008? Sitting on marine drive, I stared at the water crash against the rocks(tripods?), watching the spray kiss the sky. the full, swollen moon lighting up the ripples in the water, making it look like liquid diamonds. it was then that i realised how much i love you. eureka moment and all. That night i just knew, you were The One for me.you, are my beautiful, amazing, ever-changing, spirited, breathtaking city. You are the only place, i've ever felt home, ever called home. And you will always be the only place i want to call home. you gave me everything i wanted. you taught me everything i know. you showed me things, i wouldn't have seen otherwise. With you around, i met the most amazing people, did the most amazing things, forged the most amazing bonds. i stand, at the door of the local train, feeling the wind hit my face, looking at you and i know i want that feeling to last forever.

everytime i fell, you're arms were wide open, waiting to catch me. You straightened me up, dusted me off and told me to keep going. You always kept going. You inspired me to hang on. Because i have you, i always know it's going to be alright. And i never thought, that feeling would be snatched away from me. I never thought I'd give it away with at least half my will intact.

I never thought something could separate me from you.

But circumstances did their bitchy thing. *does filmy naheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee action*

In 6 days, i'll be leaving you. And you will be the one i will miss the most.

i have miles to go before i sleep. But you will always be the route i will choose to take. Because i cannot live without you. I'll be back before you know it. For good. I promise.

I Love You,

Niyati